REM not the only ones that lost their Religion.

REM not the only ones that lost their Religion.

See http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Luther_rose
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Yes I often feel spiritual, but I can’t always explain it. What ever it is that I will come to believe in or not believe I am very much at peace with my life and my self. I was raised in a very loyal Lutheran home. Grew up singing in the choir every Sunday and often singing duets and trios with my parents sometimes even singing hymns in Norwegian.   As I grew older my rebellion and my stubbornness came through, however when I look back maybe there were certain reasons for that rebellion.  You see at around the age of 12 as a lutheran you must go to conformation classes. For two long  years once a week (missing a class was out of the question unless you were on your death bed or perhaps were a star on the local sports team and just couldn’t miss the practice or whatever).

Well for almost two  solid years I sat there every Wednesday night memorising Martin Luther‘s Catechism and it’s meanings. Memorising the Lords prayer‘s meanings as also written by Martin Luther.  Then the big fallout between my father and our Minister Paster Krebs took place. You see my dad had to make a trip to Norway and decided it would be good to plan it for Christmas time and take me along. My parents felt very strong about me going at the time and well I was over the top excited. Problem is I was going to miss 1 class, the other 2 weeks we were gone was a Christmas break.  Paster Krebs told my father point blank that if I missed that one class I would not be able to be confirmed with the others. Dad though this was harsh and ridiculous because like I mentioned before a certain guy had missed a class or two because of basketball.  We were only a couple of months away from confirmation at the time. Needless to say dad and I boarded that airplane and I never looked back at that class (I later went on to take the classes all over again and it was cool that time because my best friend Claudia took them with me. We had a new Pastor at that time and he was very old and didn’t catch that I was 1/2 asleep most of the time. (After all I already knew the stuff).

I grew away from going to church every Sunday and started exploring life and taking risks, such a risk taker I was. Oh has time went on I still felt the need to have my sons baptised soon after they were born. But the only time I ever attended church was when I visited mom and dad. It would be about 10 years before I would start going on my own will.

I saw a banner somewhere in Bend for the Power team, (crazy insane strong men for God) I thought the boys would enjoy watching them do all there muscle tricks so I planned to go, what I didn’t plan was that I would be completely in a trance by the end of the night. It was a Carnaval type atmosphere and I had never experienced anything like it. I got goose bumps and could feel wind touching my skin like it was embracing me, my mind was almost dizzy. The only thing  I can compare it to is doing psychedelic  drugs.  I had instantly changed and I didn’t know how to explain it except that the holy ghost had entered my heart and well I was told I was a child of god. The next few years of my life I have to say I was weird, I had changed I was now a Pentecostal. Whoa what a ride that was. I really don’t even feel I can talk about it to this day. I will say this though, my life and the life of those close to me went to hell in a hand basket.

It took several events to wake me up, but that’s a whole other story. I hope to tell soon.

Big Mistake I went to the Zoo

Big Mistake I went to the Zoo

I couldn’t find one animal that didn’t look like it was dead inside. I just wanted to open all the gates and let them out.furry

The Australian National Zoo and Aquarium is a very small Zoo, they have Bears, Giraffes, Zebras, a few different types of small primates, Lions, and Tigers including a Puma plus a Cheetah and Mountain lion and little Penguins + the normal Australian things you would expect to see. Oh and I almost forgot the Red Pandas. I felt ashamed very ashamed. The en-closers are small and not pristine, Non of the animals looked like they could began to enjoy life. It was like visiting a prison. So very sad and depressing.

The Giraffes looked cold and one had a limp, the zebras didn’t move the whole time I stood and watched them. It was all about the eyes for me. Just blank stares.

Why do we as humans think we own everything on this planet? When will we realise that we are the worst predators there are. Just like the whales yesterday. It just makes me sick to mystomach that these poor animals live their lives for our pleasure.sad

no life for a tiger

What’s makes us so special

What’s makes us so special

Orca "Killer Whale" in US amusement park
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Ian had the tv on this morning and while I sat at my computer I listened only to find myself drifting towards the screen as in a trance. The story that drew my attention was about a so called reporter (Steve Jacobs) visiting sea world.  Steve was standing in front of a large glass edged tank talking about the three Orcas behind him.  I listened painfully to him go on about how intelligent they were and how many wonderful things they had been trained to do. Meanwhile the Orca’s seemed to smile and look all excited behind him. All I could think about is how tragic there lives were. Intelligent creatures kept in prison and brought out to entertain the masses. The story was meant to draw us all in to visiting one of many of these theme parks. Instead it made me sad. I will never visit one of these places I will avoid them like the plague.

Another story that caught my ear as I read friends facebook status’s was about the yucky things that are used in makeup products, like placenta, and fat from cows, the list goes on. Funny enough all the ingredients that they mentioned were natural like the beetles used in red lipstick to obtain that bright hot red colour. I admit those are yucky things and I think its’ pretty awful that we can kill things just to put in products for our own vanity but what really got me about this story is there wasn’t a mention of the REAL nasty man made chemicals that they put in these products.

Sad thing is people are lemmings

Just

Just

Sunday is absolutely beautiful

I do wish I would get of f my lazy arse and get walking. My middle is growing!

it’s been 2 months now and I’m feeling really good Sugar levels are doing pretty well. My biggest problem is I’m not exercising .

It’s time to change or die